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Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Weird feeling...>
I need a lullaby,
A kiss goodnight,
Angel sweet love of my life...
Oh, I need this.
A kiss goodnight,
Angel sweet love of my life...
Oh, I need this.
I'm kind of tired. Not physically... mentally. Maybe it's because it's the end of the term, I don't know, but something happened today... and it made me feel as if I was looking through glass. Like i was watching TV. I sat there and thought "Is this real?" and I really didn't know.
I couldn't get out of it the whole last two periods. I felt like I was watching people through sunglasses, seeing them perfectly, but them not seeing me. And I couldn't stop what happened, and now there are two people hurt.
I don't feel responsible, I know it's not my fault. But I wish that it could have turned out differently.
I felt real today. As if I could finally, finally see what was really going on between everyone. I noticed the subtle glances, the hair flicks, the downcast eyes... something about today was horribly, terribly WRONG but I can't pinpoint what it was.
I'm not sure I want to.
I mean, what is it, really, that makes us think the way we do? Thinking that way scared me this afternoon, really frightened me, because I knew somehow I was finally seeing the truth, like someone had pulled off a blindfold and given me glasses.
I hated it. I really hated it.
I hate feeling like this. Like there's nothing I can do. I'm tired of all the fighting, the sniping, the double-meaning to fake words of comfort. I'm tired of being in the middle of things, expected to choose a side, when I love them all equally, I hate knowing that I know all their secrets, including who they've bitched about.
Most of all I hate feeling so trapped by it all. I know my life isn't nearly as bad as some of theirs. But God, if it's all you've ever known, shouldn't it be considered the worst? I know that's a weird thing to say. Humour me.
Right now I'm wondering. It's the first fight they've had since they became friends four years ago and I don't even know why they're fighting and I don't want to choose sides because they're both right. If it means I sit by myself, then fine. But people who know me know there's nothing I hate more than being forced into making a decision.
I wonder if they know how I feel.
Doesn't matter anyway - hopefully, with two days to go, they'll sort it out before the holidays. Otherwise we could be in for some very awkward times. Very awkward. We were going to have a sleepover at J's but now I don't know.
I don't know.
I think this holidays I might keep to myself, focus on my studies and getting another job. I just hate feeling helpless and I don't know how well I'll fare if one of them ends up in tears over this and the rest of the group decides one way or another.
I feel like I'm being torn in two.
And I was moving at the speed of sound,
Head spinning, couldn't find my way around, and
Didn't know I was going down.
Yeah, yeah.
Where I've been, well it's all a blur
What I was looking for, I'm not sure
Too late and I didn't see it coming.
Yeah, yeah.
Head spinning, couldn't find my way around, and
Didn't know I was going down.
Yeah, yeah.
Where I've been, well it's all a blur
What I was looking for, I'm not sure
Too late and I didn't see it coming.
Yeah, yeah.
its.only.me
Monday, March 30, 2009
Peter Petrelli is alive, bitches XD>
Dattebayo*.
So I totally rocked my report, bitches. Got Excellent and A's in everything, including Psych and History. Maha. I rock! And it's nearly the holidays, too, just one more History SAC, a maths and P.E test and an essay due.
Now that I think about it, that's kind of a lot...
I'm over it.
Didn't really do much today.
Except Maths.
having online chat with J so I'll talk later. Byebye.
its.only.me
P.S Email to read first chapter of Deep Water
*Means believe it
Lunarfest :)>
So I totally rocked my report, bitches. Got Excellent and A's in everything, including Psych and History. Maha. I rock! And it's nearly the holidays, too, just one more History SAC, a maths and P.E test and an essay due.
Now that I think about it, that's kind of a lot...
I'm over it.
Didn't really do much today.
Except Maths.
having online chat with J so I'll talk later. Byebye.
its.only.me
P.S Email to read first chapter of Deep Water
*Means believe it
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Lunarfest :)>
It was pretty awesome ^^
Me and E4 got there early to get set up with Mr. T. We were very evil, too - we had to make a slide using a tarp, water and detergent, and while I was getting water Erin squirted detergent behind the cones everyone had to run around. Everyone fell over!
Haha.
My brother came over last night. He's so weird, seriously, but he has some pretty cool subwoofers on his car. I thought the volume was quiet until the base came on and it made my bedroom window vibrate. He asked me to sit in the passenger seat, right next to the subwoofer.
I told him I didn't want to sacrifice my hearing -.-
I got a clock at the Lunarfest. But not just any clock! It's shaped like a cow's head on a spring! I love it, except it ticks really loudly and it's pissing me off.
I have writer's strike! Finally! I'm on the sixteenth chapter of Deep Water. I thought I'd upload some pics of the characters for those who've read the first couple of chapters!
Here they are:
Griffin
Mikey.
Awesome much?
Haha.
its.only.me
The W**RE.>
I'm going to wring her neck. What the hell makes her think that it's okay to yell at my best friend? Oh if I was there. If I was there I would have slapped her around her blue-tinted face. DYEING YOUR HAIR BLUE IS NOT COOL. I'M OVER IT.
How dare she! Lksrsly.
I don't think any of that was ever really said! I think the stupid whore just made it up on impulse to make herself feel better, considering the reputation she's got.
Peh. What's wrong with people these days? I mean, what on earth gives some people the impression they are BETTER than everybody else? What makes them think they have a right to pick on and make life miserable for another sentient being? Another person?
Think about it.
People aren't just toys, they aren't animals. They think, they feel, they remember and above all, they're REAL. Real people with dreams and hopes as real as your own. They aren't just in anybody's imagination.
For God's sake. Get a grip on yourselves.
What the hell is wrong with you people? You people who are the FERALIST out of the bunch, you people who have this genetic quirk that is commonly known as IDIOCY. Idiots, otherwise known as IMBECILES, generally have low self-esteem and TAKE IT OUT ON OTHERS.
To whoever's reading this, if you pick on her again, I'll make you regret it.
If I could carry you on my back, I would. I swear to God I would.
Lunarfest tomorrow! Me and E4 are running the "Anything Goes" competition with Mr. T. (Yes I have a teacher named Mr. T. He is extremely awesome and the best teacher I've ever had. LIKE A FRAAAAWWWGY!).
Update tomorrow. Have 3 hour shift and won't be home till late. So we'll see what I have to report, especially about Imbecile #1.
OH SCHNAP.>
Me and E4 got there early to get set up with Mr. T. We were very evil, too - we had to make a slide using a tarp, water and detergent, and while I was getting water Erin squirted detergent behind the cones everyone had to run around. Everyone fell over!
Haha.
My brother came over last night. He's so weird, seriously, but he has some pretty cool subwoofers on his car. I thought the volume was quiet until the base came on and it made my bedroom window vibrate. He asked me to sit in the passenger seat, right next to the subwoofer.
I told him I didn't want to sacrifice my hearing -.-
I got a clock at the Lunarfest. But not just any clock! It's shaped like a cow's head on a spring! I love it, except it ticks really loudly and it's pissing me off.
I have writer's strike! Finally! I'm on the sixteenth chapter of Deep Water. I thought I'd upload some pics of the characters for those who've read the first couple of chapters!
Here they are:
Griffin
Mikey.
Awesome much?
Haha.
its.only.me
Thursday, March 26, 2009
The W**RE.>
I remember when a smile was just enough
Things were different then, you weren't so tough
I miss the times when you would say
Come on and dance another day
If you could trust yourself to see
And if you could give yourself some room to just be
For a moment
Remember when?
I know that you will come back again.
Things were different then, you weren't so tough
I miss the times when you would say
Come on and dance another day
If you could trust yourself to see
And if you could give yourself some room to just be
For a moment
Remember when?
I know that you will come back again.
I'm going to wring her neck. What the hell makes her think that it's okay to yell at my best friend? Oh if I was there. If I was there I would have slapped her around her blue-tinted face. DYEING YOUR HAIR BLUE IS NOT COOL. I'M OVER IT.
How dare she! Lksrsly.
I don't think any of that was ever really said! I think the stupid whore just made it up on impulse to make herself feel better, considering the reputation she's got.
Peh. What's wrong with people these days? I mean, what on earth gives some people the impression they are BETTER than everybody else? What makes them think they have a right to pick on and make life miserable for another sentient being? Another person?
Think about it.
People aren't just toys, they aren't animals. They think, they feel, they remember and above all, they're REAL. Real people with dreams and hopes as real as your own. They aren't just in anybody's imagination.
For God's sake. Get a grip on yourselves.
What the hell is wrong with you people? You people who are the FERALIST out of the bunch, you people who have this genetic quirk that is commonly known as IDIOCY. Idiots, otherwise known as IMBECILES, generally have low self-esteem and TAKE IT OUT ON OTHERS.
To whoever's reading this, if you pick on her again, I'll make you regret it.
If I could carry you on my back, I would. I swear to God I would.
Lunarfest tomorrow! Me and E4 are running the "Anything Goes" competition with Mr. T. (Yes I have a teacher named Mr. T. He is extremely awesome and the best teacher I've ever had. LIKE A FRAAAAWWWGY!).
Update tomorrow. Have 3 hour shift and won't be home till late. So we'll see what I have to report, especially about Imbecile #1.
Angle in disguise
You save my soul
But you make my heart go blind
My devil's face inside
Just can't let go
But it feels alright
YOU MAKE MY HEART GO BLIND.
You save my soul
But you make my heart go blind
My devil's face inside
Just can't let go
But it feels alright
YOU MAKE MY HEART GO BLIND.
its.only.me
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
OH SCHNAP.>
It's my new favourite phrase.
Lunarfest this weekend! Working 3 hour shift at work, heading down to the Lunarfest straight after and helping with one of the events, the "Anything Goes" competition. It'll be interesting, I should imagine ^^
Have double food, double psych and double P.E tomorrow. SWIMMING IS OVER FOR THE YEAR THANK YOU ALMIGHTY JESUS.
I just don't know if I could have suffered through backstroke again. Making bread in double food, probably working with J... Mrs. Wolfe is the only person I know who can turn a loaf of bread into a seriously complicated scientific equation.
I will never again think of bread as 'bread'. I will think of it as 'AND THEN THE CARBON DIOZIDE RISES DUE TO YEAST EXPANSION WHICH IS WHY YOU CAN'T OVERHEAT THE YEAST OTHERWISE CARBON DIOXIDE WILL NOT BURN OFF REMAINING ALCOHOL AND THE BREAD WILL NOT RISE'.
Bread used to be so nice to think about.
Now it gives me a headache.
On a different note, I'm tired. Like, I'm this close > < to pegging my eyes open so I can see the computer screen.
It's a good thing I have a blog. Otherwise half the stuff I think at night wouldn't be even a coherent thought by the next morning.
Oh. One more thing.
PETER PETRELLI IS ALIVE!
I bless the lord. And Rebel is Micah Sanders! I knew it! I knew it was him! I KNEW I KNEW I KNEW!
But Daphne Millbrook died. Matt Parkman is now a shattered mess. Not to mention he has a son he doesn't know about who Hiro Nakamura names "The Touch-And-Go" baby because whatever he touches, it goes. Literally.
That's it for now.
its.only.me
MAHA!>
Lunarfest this weekend! Working 3 hour shift at work, heading down to the Lunarfest straight after and helping with one of the events, the "Anything Goes" competition. It'll be interesting, I should imagine ^^
Have double food, double psych and double P.E tomorrow. SWIMMING IS OVER FOR THE YEAR THANK YOU ALMIGHTY JESUS.
I just don't know if I could have suffered through backstroke again. Making bread in double food, probably working with J... Mrs. Wolfe is the only person I know who can turn a loaf of bread into a seriously complicated scientific equation.
I will never again think of bread as 'bread'. I will think of it as 'AND THEN THE CARBON DIOZIDE RISES DUE TO YEAST EXPANSION WHICH IS WHY YOU CAN'T OVERHEAT THE YEAST OTHERWISE CARBON DIOXIDE WILL NOT BURN OFF REMAINING ALCOHOL AND THE BREAD WILL NOT RISE'.
Bread used to be so nice to think about.
Now it gives me a headache.
On a different note, I'm tired. Like, I'm this close > < to pegging my eyes open so I can see the computer screen.
It's a good thing I have a blog. Otherwise half the stuff I think at night wouldn't be even a coherent thought by the next morning.
Oh. One more thing.
PETER PETRELLI IS ALIVE!
I bless the lord. And Rebel is Micah Sanders! I knew it! I knew it was him! I KNEW I KNEW I KNEW!
But Daphne Millbrook died. Matt Parkman is now a shattered mess. Not to mention he has a son he doesn't know about who Hiro Nakamura names "The Touch-And-Go" baby because whatever he touches, it goes. Literally.
That's it for now.
its.only.me
Sunday, March 22, 2009
MAHA!>
It's that spastic laugh off the Amanda Show, remember? Penelope? "I am Amanda's NUMBER ONE FAN, please!"
I am obsessed with Gravitation and Sukisho. I love them! And I love House, M.D and Supernatural and Heroes and iCarly because it has Jerry Trainor in it and I got 96 percent on my second History SAC and I have writer's strike and I'm HIGHHIGHHIGH on sugar right now and I have a test on SURDS tomorrow and I HATE SURDS they're stupid with all that square rooting stuff.
And ever since I saw American Pie, I haven't been able to think of 'rooting' the same way again.
Not a lot to report, Rizzums slept over Saturday night and we had fun threatening to fling jelly at my cat. We also talked about many philosophical things, but we're so tired we can't remember any of what we said.
Today I had English, Food, recess, Psychology, History, lunch, Maths, Theory P.E. Here in down under, we only have 6 periods a day, a 20-minute recess break where we can eat wherever we like and all eat at the same time and a 45-minute lunch break that we all have at the same time.
Mwaha.
So far I've gathered that in America, you guys have 8 or 9 periods and all have different times for lunch. That's confusing! Someone drop me a line to tell me what's going on!
its.only.me
Oh my, how HECTIC>
I am obsessed with Gravitation and Sukisho. I love them! And I love House, M.D and Supernatural and Heroes and iCarly because it has Jerry Trainor in it and I got 96 percent on my second History SAC and I have writer's strike and I'm HIGHHIGHHIGH on sugar right now and I have a test on SURDS tomorrow and I HATE SURDS they're stupid with all that square rooting stuff.
And ever since I saw American Pie, I haven't been able to think of 'rooting' the same way again.
Not a lot to report, Rizzums slept over Saturday night and we had fun threatening to fling jelly at my cat. We also talked about many philosophical things, but we're so tired we can't remember any of what we said.
Today I had English, Food, recess, Psychology, History, lunch, Maths, Theory P.E. Here in down under, we only have 6 periods a day, a 20-minute recess break where we can eat wherever we like and all eat at the same time and a 45-minute lunch break that we all have at the same time.
Mwaha.
So far I've gathered that in America, you guys have 8 or 9 periods and all have different times for lunch. That's confusing! Someone drop me a line to tell me what's going on!
its.only.me
Friday, March 20, 2009
Oh my, how HECTIC>
Baby close your eyes
Don't open till the morning light
Don't let anyone forget
We haven't lost it all yet.
SO MUCH TO UPDATE YOU GUYS ON! Lksrsly. My baby has gone to get fixed and so I'm posting from the main computer.
Okay, first of all: needles. Tetanus needles aren't massive! Everyone reckons they are and they're so not. They're like, about as long as the work SOPHISTICATED in bigger letters, maybe up the font size a little. And it didn't hurt! I had a reaction, which sucked, so MEH upon the world. Shame on you, tetanus virus.
Next up: Woke up Thursday with my legs and arm on fire because we'd done running in P.E the day before and I'd slept on my injection arm (note to self: DO NOT) all night. So then I had double food (we made Nukky, it was GROSS) and then I had double psych with M. It was boring as hell, had my mum for an extra and she made us be quiet the whole time.
Then I had double P.E. SWIMMING.
Therefore, legs which have not stopped aching since Wednesday are now BURNING. I had to swim to one end of the pool freestyle and back using sidestroke while towing Riz. My God! It was hard. I hope I wasn't too heavy for you, Rizzums :)
Then, after swimming, pelted back to school, changed out of my school uniform and into casual and then got in the car with N and my mum to go down to Hattah where abseiling, rock climbing and canoeing (spelling?) awaited me.
Abseiling was awesome! I sort of got to the top and the guy said to me, "Now I want you to drop yourself off the edge" and I went "Noob say WHAT?!".
Lksrsly.
Today was hectic too, spent lunch at the playground watching my friends fall off the flying fox and then went to the science room with the two K's and we talked about stuff that I shall not post here or I will be spilficated (sp?) into a hundred tiny pieces.
If I could carry you, I would.
Then I ran to English and just made it on the bell when I realised I'd left my maths stuff behind and went 'OH HELL NO' and sat through D.E.A.R, then once bell went i pelted back to the lockers to swap my stuff around and only just made it on time.
BEH!
Sat next to E3 ad distracted her the whole lesson (if I ever do that again, slap me on both cheeks) but we were only doing a sheet and our teacher didn't notice...
I spent a large amount of my day running around ferally and following my friends nearly religiously all over the school. Ironically, the only place we didn't go was the girl's end of the locker bay.
I know, right?
Anyway, the links on this blog don't work YET but if you hover the mouse over them you can get the link and visit anyway! But hopefully I'll have it fixed by the end of the weekend BUT I won't be able to post tomorrow 'cause the two K's are coming over for a sleepover.
Come across, you're lost and broken
You're coming to
But you're slow in waking
You start to shake, you still haven't spoken
What happened?
its.only.me
New layout!>
Don't open till the morning light
Don't let anyone forget
We haven't lost it all yet.
SO MUCH TO UPDATE YOU GUYS ON! Lksrsly. My baby has gone to get fixed and so I'm posting from the main computer.
Okay, first of all: needles. Tetanus needles aren't massive! Everyone reckons they are and they're so not. They're like, about as long as the work SOPHISTICATED in bigger letters, maybe up the font size a little. And it didn't hurt! I had a reaction, which sucked, so MEH upon the world. Shame on you, tetanus virus.
Next up: Woke up Thursday with my legs and arm on fire because we'd done running in P.E the day before and I'd slept on my injection arm (note to self: DO NOT) all night. So then I had double food (we made Nukky, it was GROSS) and then I had double psych with M. It was boring as hell, had my mum for an extra and she made us be quiet the whole time.
Then I had double P.E. SWIMMING.
Therefore, legs which have not stopped aching since Wednesday are now BURNING. I had to swim to one end of the pool freestyle and back using sidestroke while towing Riz. My God! It was hard. I hope I wasn't too heavy for you, Rizzums :)
Then, after swimming, pelted back to school, changed out of my school uniform and into casual and then got in the car with N and my mum to go down to Hattah where abseiling, rock climbing and canoeing (spelling?) awaited me.
Abseiling was awesome! I sort of got to the top and the guy said to me, "Now I want you to drop yourself off the edge" and I went "Noob say WHAT?!".
Lksrsly.
Today was hectic too, spent lunch at the playground watching my friends fall off the flying fox and then went to the science room with the two K's and we talked about stuff that I shall not post here or I will be spilficated (sp?) into a hundred tiny pieces.
If I could carry you, I would.
Then I ran to English and just made it on the bell when I realised I'd left my maths stuff behind and went 'OH HELL NO' and sat through D.E.A.R, then once bell went i pelted back to the lockers to swap my stuff around and only just made it on time.
BEH!
Sat next to E3 ad distracted her the whole lesson (if I ever do that again, slap me on both cheeks) but we were only doing a sheet and our teacher didn't notice...
I spent a large amount of my day running around ferally and following my friends nearly religiously all over the school. Ironically, the only place we didn't go was the girl's end of the locker bay.
I know, right?
Anyway, the links on this blog don't work YET but if you hover the mouse over them you can get the link and visit anyway! But hopefully I'll have it fixed by the end of the weekend BUT I won't be able to post tomorrow 'cause the two K's are coming over for a sleepover.
Come across, you're lost and broken
You're coming to
But you're slow in waking
You start to shake, you still haven't spoken
What happened?
its.only.me
Thursday, March 19, 2009
New layout!>
I just realised that the old layout couldn't show previous posts, so I changed it! I like this one a lot more anyway.
A lot to talk about, but I'm exhausted so I'll post tomorrow.
its.only.me
Needles. Scared yet?>
A lot to talk about, but I'm exhausted so I'll post tomorrow.
its.only.me
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Needles. Scared yet?>
I just had dejavau. How creepy. In fact, I think I've used this title for a post before. Well, I'm in a very good mood right now, school's getting easier and it's FINALLY getting cold all over again ^^. For those of you sitting there going 'what? The cold sucks!' No it doesn't. I love the cold. You get to snuggle up with a doona and blanket and wear fuzzies to school and not get told off. That, to me, is the bomb.
See, contrary to popular belief, Australia does have days under 46 degrees celsius (that's very hot, trust me -.-). It was 46 degrees the day Black Saturday hit. I wasn't in the area but some friends of my friend's died.
Oh, right, back on topic.
I HAVE A TETANUS NEEDLE TOMORROW T_T
Nah, it's not that bad. It's for tetanus, diptheria and whooping cough (the first two of which aren't even in Australia. WHAT THE HELL IS THE PONT?!). Then, I'd rather have an injection than tetanus. My uncle got it when he was in America.
Tomorrow we have the motivational speaking day. It's these people who come around with a big board and show us all these different stories of people who are a real inspiration to others. Yeah. We normally only have it every two years but they made it every year.
Oh and on Thursday I go to the Hattah camp with my year 7 group for abseiling, rock climbing and the most massive flying fox in Vic. I cannot wait to abseil. I will show my friend's wimpy ass that it's not a death sentence. Even if I piss myself with terror I will do it!
www.heroeswiki.com
Oh my, I'm rather obsessed with Heroes. IT PREMIERES ON THE 23rd OF MARCH! I CANNOT WAIT! PETER PETRELLI WAS SHOT IN THE LAST EPISODE AND I MUST KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO HIM!
He's my favourite character T_T
Mum and Dad ordered me the third season of Supernatural and it should be here tomorrow! SQUEE! I CAN HAS SAMMEH WINCHESTER!
We had a maths test today. To demonstrate to my teacher the level of frustration I was in, I drew a picture of a person getting zapped by lightning all over pi.
Two weeks until holidays. I cannot wait.
Considering I had nothing to talk about, really, this has been a fairly long post so I'm going to get off the computer before Mum and Dad figure out I'm still up.
Carry on, heaps dimsham ones :) (That was a tribute to J. Yes, I am heaps pop squash ayy).
its.only.me
The Fray. Ohmilord XD>
See, contrary to popular belief, Australia does have days under 46 degrees celsius (that's very hot, trust me -.-). It was 46 degrees the day Black Saturday hit. I wasn't in the area but some friends of my friend's died.
Oh, right, back on topic.
I HAVE A TETANUS NEEDLE TOMORROW T_T
Nah, it's not that bad. It's for tetanus, diptheria and whooping cough (the first two of which aren't even in Australia. WHAT THE HELL IS THE PONT?!). Then, I'd rather have an injection than tetanus. My uncle got it when he was in America.
Tomorrow we have the motivational speaking day. It's these people who come around with a big board and show us all these different stories of people who are a real inspiration to others. Yeah. We normally only have it every two years but they made it every year.
Oh and on Thursday I go to the Hattah camp with my year 7 group for abseiling, rock climbing and the most massive flying fox in Vic. I cannot wait to abseil. I will show my friend's wimpy ass that it's not a death sentence. Even if I piss myself with terror I will do it!
www.heroeswiki.com
Oh my, I'm rather obsessed with Heroes. IT PREMIERES ON THE 23rd OF MARCH! I CANNOT WAIT! PETER PETRELLI WAS SHOT IN THE LAST EPISODE AND I MUST KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO HIM!
He's my favourite character T_T
Mum and Dad ordered me the third season of Supernatural and it should be here tomorrow! SQUEE! I CAN HAS SAMMEH WINCHESTER!
We had a maths test today. To demonstrate to my teacher the level of frustration I was in, I drew a picture of a person getting zapped by lightning all over pi.
Two weeks until holidays. I cannot wait.
Considering I had nothing to talk about, really, this has been a fairly long post so I'm going to get off the computer before Mum and Dad figure out I'm still up.
Carry on, heaps dimsham ones :) (That was a tribute to J. Yes, I am heaps pop squash ayy).
its.only.me
Saturday, March 14, 2009
The Fray. Ohmilord XD>
Contrary to popular belief, this post will not be about the Fray nor will it be happy and full of sugar, spice, and everything nice. The powerpuff girls is one f***ed up cartoon, portraying innocence into teenagerdom and sweetness from everyone you meet just because you are pink, blue or green. YES YES I KNOW. Well, honestly, if you don't want your kid reading this, why are they here? -.-
The Fray - You Found Me
Where were you, where were you?
Just a little late,
You found me, you found me,
Lying on the floor.
Why'd you have to wait
To find me, to find me?
The Fray - Say When
You still haven't spoken,
What happened?
You wanna cry,
But nothing's coming...
What is with people these days? Are we honestly so self-absorbed we don't notice when our friends or family are in pain? I'd like to think I'm always consciously aware of my friends' pain, but I know I'm no saint - God, I'm definitely no saint...
But you don't realise how well off you are until something happens to someone else and you think
'holy shit, that could have been my mum. It could've been my dad' and that's when you stop and think 'what the hell am I doing?'.
I always used to wish we'd move.
Now I want nothing more than to stay in this house. Like The Fray says - you can never say never until you don't know it.
But I just don't understand. We repeatedly stab other people in the back knowing it'll come back to bite us in the ass and yet, we do it to get that small moment of 'oh my God, I'm changing someone's life here'.
Maybe we should stop and think - are we changing that person's life for the better or worse?
I complain about a lot of things - homework, teachers, petty little things that seem so trivial to some people they laugh. And I don't blame them. I hate standing on the sidelines and watching my friends suffer through what some of them do... and they don't tell anyone. They just plough ahead and somehow, they still smile.
I once read in a poem "you don't know me, so I'm not here".
So true in some ways. So unreal in others.
So from now on, I'm going to be a good person, not take anything for granted, and live to make the world a better place. I want to help people in trouble. I want to save lives. I want to save relationships. I want to save people's children. I want to make people happy.
If only I could do it all at once.
But I can't.
So right now, I'll focus on my friends who really need help, who need a shoulder to cry on whether they hate to admit it or not, and generally try to help.
Because seriously? If all I have to suffer through is taking a test every Tuesday, getting homework every Friday and being loved by the best parents in the world, then I've got it pretty good. Really good.
Rushing past a window,
Like he's watching his own soul.
Sixty years of sorrow,
Brought five or six of bliss,
Left my mother's mother,
Without so much as a kiss.
its.only.me.
DEAD. Meaning not alive -.->
The Fray - You Found Me
Where were you, where were you?
Just a little late,
You found me, you found me,
Lying on the floor.
Why'd you have to wait
To find me, to find me?
The Fray - Say When
You still haven't spoken,
What happened?
You wanna cry,
But nothing's coming...
What is with people these days? Are we honestly so self-absorbed we don't notice when our friends or family are in pain? I'd like to think I'm always consciously aware of my friends' pain, but I know I'm no saint - God, I'm definitely no saint...
But you don't realise how well off you are until something happens to someone else and you think
'holy shit, that could have been my mum. It could've been my dad' and that's when you stop and think 'what the hell am I doing?'.
I always used to wish we'd move.
Now I want nothing more than to stay in this house. Like The Fray says - you can never say never until you don't know it.
But I just don't understand. We repeatedly stab other people in the back knowing it'll come back to bite us in the ass and yet, we do it to get that small moment of 'oh my God, I'm changing someone's life here'.
Maybe we should stop and think - are we changing that person's life for the better or worse?
I complain about a lot of things - homework, teachers, petty little things that seem so trivial to some people they laugh. And I don't blame them. I hate standing on the sidelines and watching my friends suffer through what some of them do... and they don't tell anyone. They just plough ahead and somehow, they still smile.
I once read in a poem "you don't know me, so I'm not here".
So true in some ways. So unreal in others.
So from now on, I'm going to be a good person, not take anything for granted, and live to make the world a better place. I want to help people in trouble. I want to save lives. I want to save relationships. I want to save people's children. I want to make people happy.
If only I could do it all at once.
But I can't.
So right now, I'll focus on my friends who really need help, who need a shoulder to cry on whether they hate to admit it or not, and generally try to help.
Because seriously? If all I have to suffer through is taking a test every Tuesday, getting homework every Friday and being loved by the best parents in the world, then I've got it pretty good. Really good.
Rushing past a window,
Like he's watching his own soul.
Sixty years of sorrow,
Brought five or six of bliss,
Left my mother's mother,
Without so much as a kiss.
its.only.me.
Friday, March 13, 2009
DEAD. Meaning not alive -.->
Work was so busy :(
Didn't matter, though, 'cause I got paid extra for working the extra hour. I should probably be doing homework but I honestly can't be bothered.
I had the epiphany just before - I am a better person.
Thank God, too.
Actually don't. I'm an atheist. Therefore it's surprising I smile so much - I mean, considering I don't believe in heaven or hell, that is. So once I'm dead, it's over! No more! Although I have to say, I wouldn't mind being a ghost if I got exorcised by the Winchester brothers :)
Which reminds me...
THE NEW EPISODE WAS AWESOME!!!!!
Omg. It was goddamn beautiful.
I loved it.
And mum and dad ordered me the third season! SQUEE!
its.only.me
My WONDERFUL reasoning skills =P>
Didn't matter, though, 'cause I got paid extra for working the extra hour. I should probably be doing homework but I honestly can't be bothered.
I had the epiphany just before - I am a better person.
Thank God, too.
Actually don't. I'm an atheist. Therefore it's surprising I smile so much - I mean, considering I don't believe in heaven or hell, that is. So once I'm dead, it's over! No more! Although I have to say, I wouldn't mind being a ghost if I got exorcised by the Winchester brothers :)
Which reminds me...
THE NEW EPISODE WAS AWESOME!!!!!
Omg. It was goddamn beautiful.
I loved it.
And mum and dad ordered me the third season! SQUEE!
its.only.me
Thursday, March 12, 2009
My WONDERFUL reasoning skills =P>
This is just something random I was talking about with E2. It was pretty funny and I just couldn't stop going on about it, so I thought I might share it with you guys to see if it makes any sense :)
BASIS OF SUM
Ayla says: I AM AYLA-NOOB! FEAR ME!
E***r says: lolz.
Ayla says: wat? no, fear does not equal lolz
Ayla says: you are saying that fear = lolz
Ayla says: which would be like saying fear = grannies in tutus and that lolz = advanced math
Ayla says: therefore you are saying that fear > grannies in tutus X lolz > advanced maths = grannies in tutus lolz at advanced math.
Ayla says: THIS IS AN INEQUATION!
Ayla says: fear > grannies in tutus X lolz > advanced maths = grannies in tutus lolz at advanced math ia an inequation because
Ayla says: if the grannies had never lolzed at math, they wouldn't have to still be ballerinas in tutus. Who wants a granny as a ballerina (lksrsly).
Ayla says: GRANNIES ARE NOT BALLERINAS!
Ayla says: therefore, grannies in tutus cannot have lolzed at maths. because they did well in math. they are not university lecturers.
Ayla says: therefore, there were no grannies in tutus to begin with.
Ayla says: therefore, the problem is now lolz > advanced maths = grannies in tutus lolz at advanced math CANNOT BE A PROBLEM!
Ayla says: PART OF THE PROBLEM DOES NOT EXIST AND THEREFORE IT IS NOT A PROBLEM!
Ayla says: this is what causes inequations.
Oh please, oh please, DO NOT write this on your maths exam. You will fail HORRIBLY and I will take no responsibility whatsoever. I am a fifteen-year-old Aussia chick who has no clue about anything so you shouldn't take my word for ZIT.
By the way, did anyone actually understand that problem? Leave me a message if you did and explain it to me, because I don't wanna hand it in to my maths teacher until I have proof that it's not a bunch of garbage.
You know what I accidentally called someone today?
Instead of calling them a noob, like I usually do, I called them a nood.
YOU ARE ALL NOODS XD
its.only.me
Immah smart cookeh :)>
BASIS OF SUM
Ayla says: I AM AYLA-NOOB! FEAR ME!
E***r says: lolz.
Ayla says: wat? no, fear does not equal lolz
Ayla says: you are saying that fear = lolz
Ayla says: which would be like saying fear = grannies in tutus and that lolz = advanced math
Ayla says: therefore you are saying that fear > grannies in tutus X lolz > advanced maths = grannies in tutus lolz at advanced math.
Ayla says: THIS IS AN INEQUATION!
Ayla says: fear > grannies in tutus X lolz > advanced maths = grannies in tutus lolz at advanced math ia an inequation because
Ayla says: if the grannies had never lolzed at math, they wouldn't have to still be ballerinas in tutus. Who wants a granny as a ballerina (lksrsly).
Ayla says: GRANNIES ARE NOT BALLERINAS!
Ayla says: therefore, grannies in tutus cannot have lolzed at maths. because they did well in math. they are not university lecturers.
Ayla says: therefore, there were no grannies in tutus to begin with.
Ayla says: therefore, the problem is now lolz > advanced maths = grannies in tutus lolz at advanced math CANNOT BE A PROBLEM!
Ayla says: PART OF THE PROBLEM DOES NOT EXIST AND THEREFORE IT IS NOT A PROBLEM!
Ayla says: this is what causes inequations.
Oh please, oh please, DO NOT write this on your maths exam. You will fail HORRIBLY and I will take no responsibility whatsoever. I am a fifteen-year-old Aussia chick who has no clue about anything so you shouldn't take my word for ZIT.
By the way, did anyone actually understand that problem? Leave me a message if you did and explain it to me, because I don't wanna hand it in to my maths teacher until I have proof that it's not a bunch of garbage.
You know what I accidentally called someone today?
Instead of calling them a noob, like I usually do, I called them a nood.
YOU ARE ALL NOODS XD
its.only.me
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Immah smart cookeh :)>
So, people! I am taking 7 subjects this year - Advanced Maths, English, Science, Health P.E, Psychology, History, and Home Economics.
History and Psychology are year 11 subjects. History SAC was marked out of 22 and I got 17 - the highest mark for the WHOLE YEAR LEVEL was 17 and a half. TAKE THAT! BWAHAHA! My Psychology SAC was even better. it was marked out of 40 and I got 32, giving me a nice round 80 percent.
Screw what everybody else says - so long as you know you can do it, why the hell should you have to prove it to anybody else? I don't care about proving it to anybody except the exam markers. Then I'll show my teachers and be all like
"IN YO FACE, BIATCHES!"
Bwaha.
I've been doing pretty well in maths too, considering I should only be in the lower level. But having Mr. Rowland has really helped me. I don't really like Home Economics if we're not cooking 'cause we do a lot of 'nutrition research' and where is the fun in that? And I don't have Science until next semester but I'm sure I'll hate it just as deeply as I have the last three years ^^
Back to business - STEREOTYPES.
No, I am not 'hardcore emo' because I wear Converse and skinny-leg jeans and black tops. I just don't like the mainstream!
I mean seriously. If we were all meant to be the same, we would be sheep.
Yoghurt.
Yes you heard me. Think about that.
If we were meant to be the same, we would be tiny drone ants with no purpose other than serving the queen ant, who has no purpose other than making babies so they can serve her so she can have protection while she has more babies...
Yada, yada.
Yoghurt.
I will keep emphasizing this, mark my words. 'Emo' is a very cool word for people who dress like this dude here!
May I add he dresses very cool and no, don't bother looking up Chaos Firefly on VampireFreaks. His account no longer exists.
I tried. Just take my word for it.
Yoghurt.
its.only.me
P.S A SAC is like a SAT with a T. I'm over it, you're over it, let's move on shall we?
P.P.S I deliberately chose this guy. He's hot and that attracts attention :P
Musings>
History and Psychology are year 11 subjects. History SAC was marked out of 22 and I got 17 - the highest mark for the WHOLE YEAR LEVEL was 17 and a half. TAKE THAT! BWAHAHA! My Psychology SAC was even better. it was marked out of 40 and I got 32, giving me a nice round 80 percent.
Screw what everybody else says - so long as you know you can do it, why the hell should you have to prove it to anybody else? I don't care about proving it to anybody except the exam markers. Then I'll show my teachers and be all like
"IN YO FACE, BIATCHES!"
Bwaha.
I've been doing pretty well in maths too, considering I should only be in the lower level. But having Mr. Rowland has really helped me. I don't really like Home Economics if we're not cooking 'cause we do a lot of 'nutrition research' and where is the fun in that? And I don't have Science until next semester but I'm sure I'll hate it just as deeply as I have the last three years ^^
Back to business - STEREOTYPES.
No, I am not 'hardcore emo' because I wear Converse and skinny-leg jeans and black tops. I just don't like the mainstream!
I mean seriously. If we were all meant to be the same, we would be sheep.
Yoghurt.
Yes you heard me. Think about that.
If we were meant to be the same, we would be tiny drone ants with no purpose other than serving the queen ant, who has no purpose other than making babies so they can serve her so she can have protection while she has more babies...
Yada, yada.
Yoghurt.
I will keep emphasizing this, mark my words. 'Emo' is a very cool word for people who dress like this dude here!
May I add he dresses very cool and no, don't bother looking up Chaos Firefly on VampireFreaks. His account no longer exists.
I tried. Just take my word for it.
Yoghurt.
its.only.me
P.S A SAC is like a SAT with a T. I'm over it, you're over it, let's move on shall we?
P.P.S I deliberately chose this guy. He's hot and that attracts attention :P
Musings>
Tragedy never happens in most people's lives. Most people will never experience a bombing where hundreds of people die. A gay bashing when the person is just being who they are. A grandmother dying, or a best friend.
I can't imagine losing any of my friends. Not one.
But if it did happen, I'm pretty sure I'd lose it. Fall apart. I couldn't live without a single one of them, because the group wouldn't be complete if Riz was missing, or anyone else. There wouldn't be as many laughs or anything. Not as many get-togethers. Not as much shopping.
Trouble is, you usually don't appreciate things until they're gone.
I mean, we complain and whine about SAC scores. About not having the best grades or clothes or boyfriend or girlfriend. We complain about other people. And we never really stop and think, wait, hang on, that person I'm bitching about? They're important to someone. A mother. A father, a sibling. Best friends.
You never really think about that person - someone cared enough to have them and keep them. Someone cared enough to adopt them.
You never think about what would happen if you took that one person from them.
I seriously think that if someone doesn't do something, the world's gonna go on the worst downward-spiral since the ice age. Except it'll be man induced. War and famine. Did you know the Nazis are reforming? The Neo-Nazis (new Nazis). Some sick f*ck should be shot for even thinking that maybe they had the right idea.
I'd do it in a heartbeat if everybody else hesitated. Someone needs to take a stand.
What the hell is the world coming to, thinking that they can blow things up and start a new Nazi Party? Will the governments let them get away with it?
its.only.me
100 truths about me :)>
I can't imagine losing any of my friends. Not one.
But if it did happen, I'm pretty sure I'd lose it. Fall apart. I couldn't live without a single one of them, because the group wouldn't be complete if Riz was missing, or anyone else. There wouldn't be as many laughs or anything. Not as many get-togethers. Not as much shopping.
Trouble is, you usually don't appreciate things until they're gone.
I mean, we complain and whine about SAC scores. About not having the best grades or clothes or boyfriend or girlfriend. We complain about other people. And we never really stop and think, wait, hang on, that person I'm bitching about? They're important to someone. A mother. A father, a sibling. Best friends.
You never really think about that person - someone cared enough to have them and keep them. Someone cared enough to adopt them.
You never think about what would happen if you took that one person from them.
I seriously think that if someone doesn't do something, the world's gonna go on the worst downward-spiral since the ice age. Except it'll be man induced. War and famine. Did you know the Nazis are reforming? The Neo-Nazis (new Nazis). Some sick f*ck should be shot for even thinking that maybe they had the right idea.
I'd do it in a heartbeat if everybody else hesitated. Someone needs to take a stand.
What the hell is the world coming to, thinking that they can blow things up and start a new Nazi Party? Will the governments let them get away with it?
its.only.me
100 truths about me :)>
100 TRUTHS
1. last beverage: Water
2. last phone call: Mother
3. last text message: Rizzums :)
4. last song you listened to: You Found Me by The Fray
5. last time you cried: Last year :O
SIX HAVE YOU EVER:
1. dated someone twice: Yessems :)
2. been cheated on?: Wouldn't know, would I?
3. kissed someone & regretted it? I haven't kissed anyone yet
4. lost someone special?: Most definitely.
5. been depressed? Who hasn't?
6. been drunk and threw up? Ew no. I don't drink and never will.
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
1. Bright green
2. lemon yellow
3. baby blue
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:
1. Made new friends: Oh my, yes :P
2. Fallen out of love: I haven't ever been in love, nimrod :)
3. Laughed until you cried: Oh yes :P
4. Met someone who changed you: I think I have, most definitely.
5. Found out who your true friends were: Unfortunately, I received a rude wake-up call.
6. Found out someone was talking about you: I'm a drifter. Hardly anyone knows who I am. So in answer to the question, I don't think there's anything to find out, although I'm sure they have..
7. Kissed anyone on your friend's list (Facebook): There are only 2 guys on my facebook list. One lives in Singapore and the other is my best friend :)
8. How many people on your friends list (Facebook) do you know in real life: All of 'em. Take that, bitches.
9. How many kids do you want to have: I love kids - not for me, though. I can live without.
10. Do you have any pets: Two cats and a dog.
11. Do you want to change your name: I can live with it, but I don't like it.
12. What did you do for your last birthday: Went overseas :) Was the best.
13. what time did you wake up today: Friggin' 3 AM...
14. What were you doing at midnight last night: Blogging BWAHAHA.
15. Name something you can NOT wait for: Supernatural Season 4 premiere, Heroes season 3 episode 20. PETER PETRELLI CANNOT DIE OR I WILL SUE.
16. Last time you saw your father: 5 minutes ago.
17. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Going to school. Wouldn't do it if I had a goddamn say -.-
18. What are you listening to right now: Enough For Now, The Fray.
19. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? Nearly every day.
23. What's getting on your nerves right now? DELL customer service -.-
1. Whats your real name: Ayla
2. Nicknames: Aylakins, ayla-potato, (meh) + ayla-noob.
3. Relationship Status: Single.
4. Zodia sign: Virgo.
5 .Male or female or transgendered: Female!
6. Elementary: Guess what? We don't have elementary school in Aus ^^
7. Middle School: See above ^^
8. High school: Yeah, this is what I attend - otherwise known as shark pit.
10. Hair color: Brown.
11. Long or short: Sorta short-ish
16. Height: Average, tall for my mum's side and short for Dad's.
17. Do you have a crush on someone?: A lot! Like 4! Is that even possible?
18: What do you like about yourself?: I'm awesome. Yep, I got that one. My brutal honesty comes in handy. The ability to keep my trap shut.
19. Piercings: None. (If J gets his lip pierced, I'm going to skin him alive >:(
20. Tattoos: None.
21. Righty or lefty: Righty, but I have a friend who's obsessed with left-handed people ^^
FIRSTS :
22. First surgery: I've never had surgery.
23. First piercing: I don't have any piercings.
24. First best friends: E2 and E3!!! Take that! I have 5 friends whose names start with E!
26. First sport you joined: Netball (big mistake).
27. First pet: I had a dog named Henry. Yes, Henry.
28. First vacation: 8 years old, Raratonga Beach Resort + Spa.
29. First concert: Never went to one before :(
30. First crush: Grade 5 or 6.
RIGHT NOW:
49. Eating: Nothing
50. Drinking: Nothing (Pineapple soda sounds good!)
52. I'm about to: Sneak down the hall and into the kitchen for food
53. Listening to: The Fray - yes, still. Absolute.
55. Waiting for: Ehm... um... OH! To find out if Peter Petrelli is still alive!
YOUR FUTURE :
58. Want kids?: Hasen't this question been asked before?
60. Careers in mind?: Psychologist. Look into my eyes and YOU WILL SEE MY EYES!
WHICH IS BETTER IN THE OPPOSITE SEX? :
68. Lips or eyes: Eyes.
69. Hugs or kisses: Hugs.
70. Shorter or taller: Taller.
71. Older or Younger: Older.
72. Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous.
73. Nice stomach or nice arms: It's possible to have nice arms? I guess nice stomach.
74. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive.
75. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship.
77. Trouble maker or hesitant: Trouble maker! :D Oh my, looks like I'm going for a bad-boy
HAVE YOU EVER :
78. Kissed a stranger: No.
79. Drank hard liquor : No.
80. Lost glasses/contacts: DON'T HAVE GLASSES! bwahahaha!
81. Sex on first date: Ehm? Unless you're 40 years old and a virgin, then no.
82. Broken someone's heart: Oops :(.
83. Had your own heart broken: Nope, not really. I'm over it.
85. Been arrested: Not any times that you should know about. HAHAHA.
86. Turned someone down: Yes.
87. Cried when someone died: Yes.
88. Liked a friend that is a girl?: EH?! (Who made this quiz? lksrsly).
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself: Most definitely :)
90. Miracles: Sometimes.
91. Love at first sight: No... attraction and deep, meaningful stares, yes. Not love.
92. Heaven: I would like to think there's a heaven but I'm an atheist.
93. Santa Clause: He's real if you believe in him (especially if your parents are deluded enough to think at 16 you still believe in him =P).
95. Kiss on the first date? No.
96. Angels: Yeah. ^^
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? Yeah. :D
98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? No.
100. Posting this as 100 Truths?: Guess what? This quiz is missing questions and has doubles of some, so therefore it is not 100 truths. It is 95 and 1/2 Repeated Truths. Take that, bitches.
its.only.me
DVD Drive isn't working, I have an assignment due and Peter Petrelli could be dead. -.->
1. last beverage: Water
2. last phone call: Mother
3. last text message: Rizzums :)
4. last song you listened to: You Found Me by The Fray
5. last time you cried: Last year :O
SIX HAVE YOU EVER:
1. dated someone twice: Yessems :)
2. been cheated on?: Wouldn't know, would I?
3. kissed someone & regretted it? I haven't kissed anyone yet
4. lost someone special?: Most definitely.
5. been depressed? Who hasn't?
6. been drunk and threw up? Ew no. I don't drink and never will.
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
1. Bright green
2. lemon yellow
3. baby blue
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:
1. Made new friends: Oh my, yes :P
2. Fallen out of love: I haven't ever been in love, nimrod :)
3. Laughed until you cried: Oh yes :P
4. Met someone who changed you: I think I have, most definitely.
5. Found out who your true friends were: Unfortunately, I received a rude wake-up call.
6. Found out someone was talking about you: I'm a drifter. Hardly anyone knows who I am. So in answer to the question, I don't think there's anything to find out, although I'm sure they have..
7. Kissed anyone on your friend's list (Facebook): There are only 2 guys on my facebook list. One lives in Singapore and the other is my best friend :)
8. How many people on your friends list (Facebook) do you know in real life: All of 'em. Take that, bitches.
9. How many kids do you want to have: I love kids - not for me, though. I can live without.
10. Do you have any pets: Two cats and a dog.
11. Do you want to change your name: I can live with it, but I don't like it.
12. What did you do for your last birthday: Went overseas :) Was the best.
13. what time did you wake up today: Friggin' 3 AM...
14. What were you doing at midnight last night: Blogging BWAHAHA.
15. Name something you can NOT wait for: Supernatural Season 4 premiere, Heroes season 3 episode 20. PETER PETRELLI CANNOT DIE OR I WILL SUE.
16. Last time you saw your father: 5 minutes ago.
17. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Going to school. Wouldn't do it if I had a goddamn say -.-
18. What are you listening to right now: Enough For Now, The Fray.
19. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? Nearly every day.
23. What's getting on your nerves right now? DELL customer service -.-
1. Whats your real name: Ayla
2. Nicknames: Aylakins, ayla-potato, (meh) + ayla-noob.
3. Relationship Status: Single.
4. Zodia sign: Virgo.
5 .Male or female or transgendered: Female!
6. Elementary: Guess what? We don't have elementary school in Aus ^^
7. Middle School: See above ^^
8. High school: Yeah, this is what I attend - otherwise known as shark pit.
10. Hair color: Brown.
11. Long or short: Sorta short-ish
16. Height: Average, tall for my mum's side and short for Dad's.
17. Do you have a crush on someone?: A lot! Like 4! Is that even possible?
18: What do you like about yourself?: I'm awesome. Yep, I got that one. My brutal honesty comes in handy. The ability to keep my trap shut.
19. Piercings: None. (If J gets his lip pierced, I'm going to skin him alive >:(
20. Tattoos: None.
21. Righty or lefty: Righty, but I have a friend who's obsessed with left-handed people ^^
FIRSTS :
22. First surgery: I've never had surgery.
23. First piercing: I don't have any piercings.
24. First best friends: E2 and E3!!! Take that! I have 5 friends whose names start with E!
26. First sport you joined: Netball (big mistake).
27. First pet: I had a dog named Henry. Yes, Henry.
28. First vacation: 8 years old, Raratonga Beach Resort + Spa.
29. First concert: Never went to one before :(
30. First crush: Grade 5 or 6.
RIGHT NOW:
49. Eating: Nothing
50. Drinking: Nothing (Pineapple soda sounds good!)
52. I'm about to: Sneak down the hall and into the kitchen for food
53. Listening to: The Fray - yes, still. Absolute.
55. Waiting for: Ehm... um... OH! To find out if Peter Petrelli is still alive!
YOUR FUTURE :
58. Want kids?: Hasen't this question been asked before?
60. Careers in mind?: Psychologist. Look into my eyes and YOU WILL SEE MY EYES!
WHICH IS BETTER IN THE OPPOSITE SEX? :
68. Lips or eyes: Eyes.
69. Hugs or kisses: Hugs.
70. Shorter or taller: Taller.
71. Older or Younger: Older.
72. Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous.
73. Nice stomach or nice arms: It's possible to have nice arms? I guess nice stomach.
74. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive.
75. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship.
77. Trouble maker or hesitant: Trouble maker! :D Oh my, looks like I'm going for a bad-boy
HAVE YOU EVER :
78. Kissed a stranger: No.
79. Drank hard liquor : No.
80. Lost glasses/contacts: DON'T HAVE GLASSES! bwahahaha!
81. Sex on first date: Ehm? Unless you're 40 years old and a virgin, then no.
82. Broken someone's heart: Oops :(.
83. Had your own heart broken: Nope, not really. I'm over it.
85. Been arrested: Not any times that you should know about. HAHAHA.
86. Turned someone down: Yes.
87. Cried when someone died: Yes.
88. Liked a friend that is a girl?: EH?! (Who made this quiz? lksrsly).
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself: Most definitely :)
90. Miracles: Sometimes.
91. Love at first sight: No... attraction and deep, meaningful stares, yes. Not love.
92. Heaven: I would like to think there's a heaven but I'm an atheist.
93. Santa Clause: He's real if you believe in him (especially if your parents are deluded enough to think at 16 you still believe in him =P).
95. Kiss on the first date? No.
96. Angels: Yeah. ^^
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? Yeah. :D
98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? No.
100. Posting this as 100 Truths?: Guess what? This quiz is missing questions and has doubles of some, so therefore it is not 100 truths. It is 95 and 1/2 Repeated Truths. Take that, bitches.
its.only.me
DVD Drive isn't working, I have an assignment due and Peter Petrelli could be dead. -.->
For all I know, Peter Petrelli could be dead! He's my favourite character, too! He got shot at the end of Exposed but I don't suppose they felt the need to elaborate on his current DEAD OR ALIVE status in the most ecent episode. Like seriously, what's wrong with the world?
Omg. Today me and E in maths were singing lovely ballads, such as 'What about me' by Shannon Noll. We started on that song that goes 'I have a car, I have a big black shiny car' and then E interrupted and she's like, "Can we stop singing this because I hate the f***er."
I don't think I've ever laughed harder in my life! Especially considering it was double Ad. Maths and that we were doing friggin' angles and unimportant stuff.
Had all doubles today too - Double History (WW2 + The Nazi's Rise to power) Double English (which was just speeches and stuff) and Double Maths (who we had subs for). So the day was pretty easy, even if it was pouring rain.
As stated in title, my DVD drive isn't working, meaning I can't play DVDs. So I'm backing up my system to do a complete system restore.
MEH!
I will get it to work if it kills me. And please, if ANYONE has ANY spoilers for the next episode of Heroes, PLEASE, I BEG YOU, tell me if Peter Petrelli survives. Because if he doesn't, I'm not going to watch the show anymore -.-
That's how much I really, REALLY, REALLY, E X T R E M E L Y love Peter Petrelli.
Yeah.
Twilight haters, go here: www.twilightsucks.com
It made me LOL.
its.only.me
Proud Much??>
Omg. Today me and E in maths were singing lovely ballads, such as 'What about me' by Shannon Noll. We started on that song that goes 'I have a car, I have a big black shiny car' and then E interrupted and she's like, "Can we stop singing this because I hate the f***er."
I don't think I've ever laughed harder in my life! Especially considering it was double Ad. Maths and that we were doing friggin' angles and unimportant stuff.
Had all doubles today too - Double History (WW2 + The Nazi's Rise to power) Double English (which was just speeches and stuff) and Double Maths (who we had subs for). So the day was pretty easy, even if it was pouring rain.
As stated in title, my DVD drive isn't working, meaning I can't play DVDs. So I'm backing up my system to do a complete system restore.
MEH!
I will get it to work if it kills me. And please, if ANYONE has ANY spoilers for the next episode of Heroes, PLEASE, I BEG YOU, tell me if Peter Petrelli survives. Because if he doesn't, I'm not going to watch the show anymore -.-
That's how much I really, REALLY, REALLY, E X T R E M E L Y love Peter Petrelli.
Yeah.
Twilight haters, go here: www.twilightsucks.com
It made me LOL.
its.only.me
Monday, March 9, 2009
Proud Much??>
Proud much? I'm updating! Luckily for you as I normally forget or have so.goddamn.much to do I never get around to it! Today I went down to the river with Mum and ate Maccas there. Then I met up with McRiz and her little sister at Centro.
It was pretty cool :)
I got a new game too - Final Fantasy VII. Played it at Riz's and it's one of those games that doesn't have 'you died' it has 'game over' and you have to start from the start again.
Bleh upon the world!
Nothing else to report.
its.only.me
No working title ^^>
It was pretty cool :)
I got a new game too - Final Fantasy VII. Played it at Riz's and it's one of those games that doesn't have 'you died' it has 'game over' and you have to start from the start again.
Bleh upon the world!
Nothing else to report.
its.only.me
Sunday, March 8, 2009
No working title ^^>
Today I went to J's with E and we made the weirdest stuff. We made stir-fry which was normal enough until we dyed the rice bright blue! It turned the chicken blue as well so it sorted of looked like a radioactive spider had come along and gotten squished all over our plates.
It was pretty awesome :)
Then we put an array of things in the microwave and actually managed to cook brownies. That's right, folks - WE DIDN'T BURN THEM! And then J was being really weird and E told him to shut up. When he wouldn't she kinda piffed a plastic measuring cup at his head.
Lol!
And then we spiked his drink with choc chips, chicken stock, beef sauce and raspberry flavouring. Unfortunately, he realised before he drank it because we put in too much chicken stock and it frothed.
Oops.
Then he spiked E's drink with loads of the raspberry flavouring and it was coke - she drank it and nearly vomited. It was SO FUNNY :D
Nobody spiked my drink. Too scared I guess =P
its.only.me
And again, a problem>
It was pretty awesome :)
Then we put an array of things in the microwave and actually managed to cook brownies. That's right, folks - WE DIDN'T BURN THEM! And then J was being really weird and E told him to shut up. When he wouldn't she kinda piffed a plastic measuring cup at his head.
Lol!
And then we spiked his drink with choc chips, chicken stock, beef sauce and raspberry flavouring. Unfortunately, he realised before he drank it because we put in too much chicken stock and it frothed.
Oops.
Then he spiked E's drink with loads of the raspberry flavouring and it was coke - she drank it and nearly vomited. It was SO FUNNY :D
Nobody spiked my drink. Too scared I guess =P
its.only.me
Friday, March 6, 2009
And again, a problem>
So I had work today. 3 hour shift, and it was so.goddamn.busy it wasn't funny. On the other hand, I got to make all the cold drinks, which is something I've never done before, and I also cooked a bit and waited all the tables.
I'm dead on my feet! Seriously!
I've already started to revise for exams, the bloody things. Dreading the History and Maths exams because I'm absolutely positive I will FAILFAILFAIL.
I finally got a pair of black Converse All-Star hightops. THANK YOU LORD!!! They were the last pair in my size. Now i just need some more skinny leg jeans and a few long sleeved tops and I'm all set for winter!
J and D came past my work today, but I don't think they saw me because I was standing behind a big fat guy. (Shh! Don't tell anyone I said that or I'll be in huge trouble!).
Can't wait to go to J's tomorrow - we're gonna cook something good, I hope, I think we were gonna make risotto.
My favourite quote of the moment is:
"'Cause it seems like everyone around me is miserable and lonely, but I'm still breathing."
Courtesy of MOI!
My McRiz made a blog too! I'll link her in the Roadblocks section. Oh and I'm gonna post the URL on Courtney and Tim's blogs as well.
TTFN
its.only.me
Hello again :)>
I'm dead on my feet! Seriously!
I've already started to revise for exams, the bloody things. Dreading the History and Maths exams because I'm absolutely positive I will FAILFAILFAIL.
I finally got a pair of black Converse All-Star hightops. THANK YOU LORD!!! They were the last pair in my size. Now i just need some more skinny leg jeans and a few long sleeved tops and I'm all set for winter!
J and D came past my work today, but I don't think they saw me because I was standing behind a big fat guy. (Shh! Don't tell anyone I said that or I'll be in huge trouble!).
Can't wait to go to J's tomorrow - we're gonna cook something good, I hope, I think we were gonna make risotto.
My favourite quote of the moment is:
"'Cause it seems like everyone around me is miserable and lonely, but I'm still breathing."
Courtesy of MOI!
My McRiz made a blog too! I'll link her in the Roadblocks section. Oh and I'm gonna post the URL on Courtney and Tim's blogs as well.
TTFN
its.only.me
Hello again :)>
So my last blog wasn't working properly so I decided to start all over again! Loving the new layout, so easy and clean to read, just a little small for me. Right now it's twenty to eleven and I should probably be asleep right now but I've got work tomorrow so meh :)
Don't have any homework - which is why I'm bein' a little nerd and staying up tonight, talking with my noobeths online and thinking that my brand new comp might have a virus :(
Sucks.
Planning to go to J's on the weekend - me and him and E are gonna cook dinner (or attempt to) and then eat it! It could take a while judging by how unorganised we are though.
Enough for tonight.
-its.only.me.
hey>
Don't have any homework - which is why I'm bein' a little nerd and staying up tonight, talking with my noobeths online and thinking that my brand new comp might have a virus :(
Sucks.
Planning to go to J's on the weekend - me and him and E are gonna cook dinner (or attempt to) and then eat it! It could take a while judging by how unorganised we are though.
Enough for tonight.
-its.only.me.
hey>
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